One thing leads to the next, or so it seems. I often wonder if all things are happening simultaneously but being stuck in our physical form doesn't allow us to see beyond the here and now?
While painting the Ginevra de Benci series, I read some in-depth books on Leonardo and the Renaissance period of Italy. What was amazing to me was the resurgence of the philosophy of Plato during that time and the role his writings played in shaping the idea of love and God. The idea of Platonic love was reintroduced and the perceptions of God began to change. That led me down another path which made me wonder about fate and destiny. There are times I think when most people wish they were doing something else with their lives and I began wondering how this plays out or manifest in peoples every day routines. Thoughts are energy and that energy shapes our reality. So if someone is not happy with their fate, how does that manifest? I started looking at each beginning brushstroke as fate – it is the fate of that moment that I chose to move my brush from right to left across the canvas, and that movement influences my next thought and brush stroke.
If I am not happy with what I have done then the painting will ultimately be lost, most likely a month or two later as the foundation that I am building the painting on is not solid. But if I am accepting of my choices and remain present in each moment, the painting has a happy conclusion.
It's the accepting of my fate. I began researching this idea and came upon a quote by Nietzsche.
“I want to learn more and more to see as beautiful what is necessary in things; then I shall be one of those who make things beautiful. Amor fati: let that be my love henceforth! I do not want to wage war against what is ugly. I do not want to accuse; I do not even want to accuse those who accuse. Looking away shall be my only negation. And all in all and on the whole: some day I wish to be only a Yes-sayer.”
Thus began the series titled Amor Fati.